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1. As much as he dislikes it, Guy has a tendency towards obedience, no matter how great his ambitions and dreams of power, respect and position get. The Brothers of Saint John of Jerusalem, and certainly their military brothers, were big on discipline and order and it was the monastic way to be obedient to God and your superior. It's something he's never quite managed to shake off, even with the passing of time.

2. It does, however, go a long way to explaining why he serves the Sheriff. But only because the Sheriff got there first with his lure of familiar deference. If a certain, feisty maiden had arrived in his life a few years earlier, well, there would be no question whose orders he would be following now.

3. There is no mistaking that Guy has a problem with controlling his temper; a result of years of violence and being pushed and pushed until one day he exploded. He's had a problem with it ever since, no matter how much he tries to endure and tolerate the irritations, hurts and failures he experiences so often.

4. Even with an older brother, two older sisters and a half-sister, Guy was a boy who was often found on his own. Partly through choice and partly a result of never truly getting on with his brother, who blamed him, perhaps jealously, for weakening their mother's health so. Guy was the apple of his mother's eye, her favourite; a place that Hugo felt should be his own.

5. When Guy started to grow tall, he got tall quickly. Very quickly. Tall, gangly and ungainly, he was suddenly extraordinarily clumsy - being unused to long limbs and increased height. It might have been this new-gained clumsiness which made it so easy for his father to give him away when the time came, soon after his mother's death.

6. He never really got to know his father's second wife, but he adored his little half-sister, who loved that this big brother always had time for her when he visited. It made her fate all the worse and all the more unforgivable when it came to pass.

7. In time, Guy grew into his height. He filled out, got used to his extended reach and learnt to use it to his advantage in combat - most useful when on horseback or on the wide sprawl of a battlefield, surrounded by foe.

8. All that remains of little Matilda is a curl of burnished bronze, hidden within a piece of silver jewellery taken from a man in Antioch. That there is so little, is one of the reasons he hates the king.

9. That Guy survived was a cruel twist of fate and a cursed blessing from fickle Fortune. It was his loyal service and success in battle that spared his life; both efforts to please his father, for whom he was always less than second best. This too adds fuel to his loathing.

10. Ambition, it seems now, was a family trait. His ambition may seem similar at the surface to that of his father and brother, but at its heart is different kind of soul with different reasons. Power, wealth, land, respect. Not just for their own gain or in recompense for failure any longer; but, since meeting Marian, for the promise of what they could provide.
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1. He did not know it then, but it would have been better for Guy not to have taken the Sheriff's offer of the position of his lieutenant, desperate as he was. He would have remained the disillusioned, bitter loner that he was now, but less broken, less twisted inside and less trapped.

2. Guy is very trapped, which for a man of his lineage and time is almost an unbearable position to be in. He endures it only because (and he would never admit it) he is afraid of the alternatives - all of which are basically complete failure.

3. With that in mind though, he would give up everything he has worked for, for Marian's love and to bask in her smile for the rest of time.

4. If the thing with his father had never happened, and the subsquent fallout from that event, Guy would never have left the religious life. He may have been in the process of becoming one of the military brothers of the Knights Hospitaller and still a warrior, but as the second son of the family he was given to the church after a fashion.

5. After all that happened with his father and the immediate events following that, Guy could no longer pray for the salvation of his own soul. Then, it was because he had lost his faith. Now, after all that he has done since then, because he cannot say sorry and know for sure that he will not remain the same cold-blooded murderer that he has become.

6. Guy made a vow after the death of his father and brother and the scattering and ruin of what remained of his immediate family to do all he could to restore the family name, lands and position. If you ask him about it, he may say that he does it to make them proud. What he means is that he does it because he failed them and this is the only way he can atone for that sin.

7. He thinks that he loves Marian. He does not realise that this idea of love is not really love. In reality though, he does love her but could not or more likely would not admit to himself or anyone else exactly why.

8. The truth is that she is braver than him, more capable of making decisions and has an unwavering sense of right and wrong. Guy's moral line started to get twisted and tangled shortly before the Sheriff caught him in his claws and has only become more knotted since then.

9. Guy is still holding onto the idea that one day, he will be rid of the Sheriff and have the land and title that he desires. In darker, more despairing moments, he only has the faint hope that he will be free of the Sheriff.

10. He wears his leather jacket and gloves even in the stifling heat. Not because he's ashamed of his body or the way he looks, or because he thinks he looks really great in it. He wears them because he doesn't like to be touched or to touch people. Marian, of course, is the exception. It's gloves off with her.

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Sir Guy of Gisborne

April 2012

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